I always seem to have this recurring problem when I write. It usually begins with an idea that happens earlier in the day that I’m not able to act on at the moment. No worries, I’ll just file it away for later… then when later comes I just stare blankly at wordpress/word/whatever – not so much from a lack of remembering the idea of awesome as much as the actual act of getting it into words. In fact, I find that the only way I can really get anything going is to pretty much just start rambling on paper, let my thoughts take hold, and then go back and edit out the ramblings later.
I think this time I’ll leave it, just for you. All the text after this is edited, though. >.>
I started the year with a 60-hour work week, which sucked, followed by a 20-hour work week and 4 days of the flu, which also sucked. I feel like I’m just now caught up enough to really appreciate the fact that a new year is here.
One thing I’m trying this year that I’ve never really done before is making a resolution. But ugh, I really hate that word. It conjures up images of false promises to oneself just to fit in with tradition. Let’s look at this another way, hmm?
Looking back over the recent years of my life, it’s not very hard to recognize a trend in how I spend a lot of my time – I do things I enjoy doing which are easy to do. Computer games, reading, and so forth. Unfortunately this tendancy of mine means there are lot of things I would enjoy doing that are not easy which I have not done. I own two guitars I don’t know how to play. I own a bike which is in disrepair, rollerblades and running shoes which haven’t really been used, stories that I started two years ago and haven’t touched, half-complete computer programs… I have left a trail of unfinished and half-assed stuff in my wake. What’s sad is that I can point exactly to the root of all this – I procrastinate the hell out of everything. “Eh, I’ll do it tomorrow.” “I’m not in a guitar mood today, maybe another time.” Pulling back the microscope a bit farther shows that this lethargy has affected other aspects of my life as well, from a to z, and specifically in areas like work.
So, how do I fix all this?
I’ve started trying to actually establish goals and make lists for myself (by the way, the program OneNote has been absolutely amazing for this), and then sticking to those. It’s a process which is taking some getting used to. I’m also trying to get in the habit of doing things as the occur to me (”Man, I should really go clean the kitchen before playing WoW.”) and not postponing them until later.
I guess we’ll see how it goes.
